I miss him so much. He really changed my life and possibly saved it too. Michael Jackson was my inspiration, my hope, and my hero. I love him. I always have, I always will.  I know that not all people may feel the same way I do about him. It's so strange I may know him personally or anything like that, but his passing was as if I had lost a family member. I'm not one of those people who love Michael just in one time period, I love all of him. I love him when  he was young and I love him now. I watched the memorial service and it gave me a little closure, but its difficult to believe he is actually gone. I don't know why but i just can't accept it. I've been on an emotional roller coaster for the past couple of days. I am upset and a crying mess then angry at the media because of the slander. Calling him a pedophile and pervert is inappropriate on so many levels, it shows that people these days have no morals because you are not suppose to speak bad about the dead. It's also inappropriate because he was CLEARED on all charges so therefore Peter Kings comments are slander. I can't watch the news it just makes me so angry and upset so now i avoid all news channels. I don't know why I can't accept he is gone and I can't help but feel the empty space in my heart and pang in my soul. I just know that I miss him and that I love him always and forever.